How I found it...

...Motivation that is. 

It wasn't easy at all. You can't make yourself do some things if you're just not motivated. I knew I wanted to lose weight but I just wasn't motivated to put the work into it. I had joined what I'll refer to as "Dub Dub" shortly after my 2nd kiddo was born in 2008. I had done the Dub Dub plan before and had success - but even though I wanted to lose the weight I had nothing truly motivating me.

Fast forward to March of this year. I had just turned 29 and wasn't happy with the idea of being 29. Maybe it was because I just wasn't happy with the way I looked. Feeling like a frump at that age just wasn't working for me. Yet still....I was lacking that motivation.

Fast forward to the beginning of September. Once again I joined Dub Dub. It started off ok but after 2 or so weeks I had lost the excitement of it and my motivation was still pretty much zip, zero, zilch.

Around the first week in October I was sitting around one night bored after the kiddos had gone to bed and I remembered that I wanted to re-listen to a song I had heard on the radio. I knew it was 30 Seconds to Mars...I had liked "From Yesterday" and "Kings and Queens"....but with 2 kiddos, 3 jobs, a house, and a husband - music hadn't had a big place in my life for years....which makes me really sad. Music had always played a huge part in my life...I've played piano since I was 4....no matter what genre or type I've always been pretty open minded and loved music so much.

So back to 30stm....I got online and got on youtube...I listened to the new 30stm song I had heard on the radio - "This is War". Loved it. Then watched/listened to "Kings and Queens"....loved it. Then I started going through all their videos on the 30stm youtube channel.....every song kept getting better and better.

But when I got to "Closer to The Edge" something happened. I heard that song and watched the video and it made me so happy. 

And here's the weird thing....it made me want to get up and run. Yeah....run. 

I probably haven't run further than 2 blocks in YEARS. 

When I was growing up my Dad would get up and run every morning. He would sign up for 5k's and 10k's...and sometimes I'd sign up for the 5k's too. It was a great bonding activity for us when I was in elementary school and junior high. But then I stopped.

For the past 15 years if working out was brought up one of the first things out of my mouth would've been "I'm not a runner....soooo not a runner". Even walking bored me sometimes. Maybe it's ADD....but I could just never get into running.

So when hearing "Closer To The Edge" and suddenly feeling like wanting to be the next Forrest Gump....I knew something was going on. 

Over the next week or so I listened to the "This Is War" album over and over again....during that week I took a "mom-cation" overnight to see my other fav band and had a 4 hour drive each way....so I had a lot of time to reflect and think.....and it's prob the best 4 hours I've had in a long time.

Throughout the years I've heard people talk about a defining or as Oprah likes to say - an "a-ha! moment". I just could never relate....I'd never had that.....until October 12, 2010. 

I was driving home from "mom-cation" listening to "This Is War" and suddenly everything was so clear. The music was so amazing. Every song made life so much more clear and my motivation was suddenly there. 

I came home and immediately went to the grocery store....picked up a ton of fruits and veggies and pretty much started changing my life. 

Last week I got my ass on a treadmill. Now that's something I thought I'd never say. I popped in some headphones and started listening to "This Is War". I didn't run for too long but I reached my goal of running a mile....something I probably hadn't done since junior high. But when I got off the treadmill I just felt so good. The next day I did it again.....and the day after that I went to Zumba class. The rest of the week I was down for the count with a nasty cold....I didn't get my butt back on the treadmill or exercise but I stuck to my healthy eating and it paid off b/c I lost 2.4lbs last week. 

So at this point in time on the Dub Dub I've lost 12lbs....previous to joining the Dub Dub I'd lost 10 pounds....so for the year I'm down 22lbs.

I decided to start this blog for a few reasons. One reason is that it'll keep me accountable. I'm more likely to stay true to my healthy eating if I have to come on here and tell the world about it. It helps to have the vastness of the internet help keep me accountable. Another reason is to help pay homage to the band who gave me the motivation to really kick my butt in gear.